Everyday
>> Wednesday, June 25, 2008
As you know, I have recently completed my most major/final/end of A-levels exam.
Throughout my exam and the months of studying, God continues to work in His wonderful ways that we cannot comprehend.
So this is my testimony...
Many who know me well might know that 'Philip can't sit down and study'.
Yeap.
Well of course I could do a homework or two and maybe read briefly through a chapter.
But throughout the whole of A Levels and including my other years of education, I realised I can't seem to sit still for an hour or half of that or maybe even 15 minutes to just STUDY.
Even the word itself induces me to find solace in my pillow and that comfortable bed nearby.
This is why you notice most of the time even though I'm in the library... I'm mostly sleeping. Haha.
But the thing is, even with the knowledge that exam is near and this is going to be my last. I never actually got off my beautiful bed after the revelation truth that came slapping me on the face when I accepted the results of my first exam.
But a month before my exam started, I forced myself to study. Hence, up came a study plan to try to complete a 2 years worth of syllabus in around 30 days.
IMPOSSIBLE. I thought.
No way I could finish all the chapters needed and those strangely unfamiliar books that lay beside me.
Give me a year and I'll be fine... But, 30 days!?
Suicide. (well, for my brain it was)
Then came a faint voice reminding me the verse of Philippians 4:13 which says "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
I got down on my knees (a couple of times actually) and prayed
"God! If you can create something as vast the universe and something as detailed as a person's DNA. Surely this exam means nothing compared to what you can do! Although I am not the type who has faith that a miracle like "showing me all the exam questions in a vision", but with whatever little faith I have... I will trust in you. Give me your strength Lord, the road ahead looks tough. But I know that You are always there. Help me Lord to rely on YOUR STRENGTH and NOT MINE. Amen"
Provers 3:5-6 says " Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
Throughout my whole time of studying and exams, I put my trust in Him and I lived each day by the power of His strength.
Yea, at some points it wasn't all easy and I did falter. But He continues to fill my cup when I spill it, when it's empty, when it's dry.
Simple everyday things were used with His creativity to encourage me to press on... the sounds of birds, the encouragement of friends, the laughter in a comedy show...
It all continue to spur me on.
In the end of it all, I also amazed myself at the fact that I was able to finish a whole law book in 4 days with enough input to be able to do my paper. I didn't exactly write with 100% knowledge of everything, I did forget most of what I studied. But the wonderful thing for me is that I managed to do my exam, compared to handing up a blank answer sheet.
Please don't think I'm being self-centered. I am actually expressing my amazement and glorifying God, the One who worked in ways I cannot imagine.
Honestly, I am not afraid of whatever marks I may get. Although I know that I did study at the last minute. But what I am certain of is that my God is good, all the time. Through the good times and even the bad times. Whether my results will come out great, or if it seems disappointing... I will still praise Him. For He has saw me through that stage and provided me with His grace and strength. And He continues to do so till we meet.
The grace that sees me waking up to a brand new day; I am thankful.
PS : A big THANK YOU to all those who kept me in prayers or encouraged me in your own fancy ways. You will be blessed.
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